Weekend.

     It's Friday and so that mean's the weekend will be here soon!

I have quite a busy weekend ahead, but I wanted to recap this past weekend, as it was very enjoyable.


In my last post, I mentioned how I was looking forward to a Sushi dinner, as Bella and I's friend, Anthony, would be taking us out for dinner on Friday night.  Well, taking her out as his gift to her for her upcoming birthday.
So it was myself, Bella, Anthony, and Carlos (also from work).  We got there at happy hour so, naturally, us ladies ordered ourselves a couple of drinks (comopolitans and plumtini's!).
Let me say though - not drinking and practically not eating for a week from juicing certainly takes it toll once you decide to consume alcohol again!  Hello buzz.

We ordered a bunch of sushi and edamame and we all pretty much shared and tried each other's rolls.  I hadn't been to Seito since my first ex, John, had taken me to one to try sushi for the first time (a bad experience, as he ordered eel and octopus...stuff a first time sushi-tryer shouldn't have!). 
It was delicious!  I would love to go back soon.  And the guys were so sweet, Anthony was treating Bella, of course, and Carlos picked my tab up for me.  We have some great guy friends.  After, we went back to Anthony's place, and played LIFE.  I won!

A few pics from Friday night:

Cosmos!

 Carlos and Anthony

     On Saturday, I took Bella out for the day so that I could buy her her birthday present.  Her ex roommate had broken her hookah, so I knew I wanted to get her a new one.  The place we went was super cool, and the girl that helped us was very nice and gave us advice about which things to buy.  Bella actually ended up buying herself this special hose with removable, freeazble inserts that will cool the smoke as you inhale, so you don't have to put ice in the bottom with the water. 

We then went to Dechoes to do a little shopping!  Bella ended up picking out some jeans and a few things for our girl-friends' upcoming birthday, and I found two dresses I really liked, and a statue-esque like decoration to also give our friend for her birthday.  Hunger then claimed us, so we headed to The Greek Corner for late lunch/early dinner.  We both had pita sandwiches, and they were delicious!  (Juicing took a backseat this weekend.  We were celebrating afterall!)

We went back to Beth's and tried out her new hookah, and closer to midnight, we went to a screening of Cannibal: The Musical, which Sarah (whom I mentioned in my last post) is a part of the theatre production happening next month at Fringe Festival!  It was hilarious, and I can't wait to see it at Fringe.

     Sunday was Bella's actual birthday, so we all gathered at her parents' house and cooked, ate, drank, and laughed.  It was a really great weekend.

This weekend is full of more fun times.  It's another friend's birthday, so I'm going out to dinner with her, her family, and a bunch of friends.  Then tomorrow, it's the Zoo with a bunch of work friends!

Have a great Weekend!!

Looking Forward.

     I hung out with my best friend Bella, and her older sister Sarah last night.  I love going to Sarah's.  She semi-recently moved into her new house over in College Park, and I just adore it. 
The hardwood floors, her steam-punk-ish decorations, vintage lamps and furniture make me so excited for when myself, Bella, and our mutual girlfriend Cynthia all move into our own house in the fall.  And there are so many adorable houses for rent in that area, I'm really hoping that we get to be close by to Sarah.  We've already made plans to become Ladies that brunch on the weekends ("Coffee and Omelette's!").  We gushed for a while, talking about how we'd get to walk everywhere: to the coffee shops, pubs, vintage stores.  We can cook, and bake, and have fun backyard parties (it is now known, once we start our search, that we want to find a place with a small yard: preferably lawn care included!).

Our conversations just got me thinking about this year in general, and how it's already started on a pretty great note.  It got me thinking of things I'm looking forward to/want to do in the upcoming months.  I made a list:

1. Trip to Costa Rica with Bella's family in June.

(whom I am basically an adopted daughter/sister to - we are all close.  I love them).

2.  Changing up my eating/exercise habits to lead a healthier lifestyle.

(starting with Juicing - the good for you kind).

3.  Changing up my hair, and finally letting it grow long (I have no patience, and usually end up cutting it all off.  Not this time.  I hope..).  I'm currently thinking maybe bangs...or a red-brown hair colour for the fall.

4.  Bella's birthday this Sunday!  I can't wait to hang out with her family, and have tons of yummy food, drinks, and laughs.

5.  Looking for the perfect house, and moving in, making it our own.

6.  House parties/Dinners/Celebrations/Festivities!

7.  Potentially having cuddles and kisses from someone new (you never know).

8.  More trips up to Tallahassee to see my Sister and brother-in-law.  We may have meltdowns more often than not, but I still enjoy seeing them.

I'm sure there are more on this list to come, but for now that's all I could think of! :)

Much more nearer...I'm looking very forward to dinner tonight with Bella and our friend/co-worker of sorts, Anthony, as he is taking us out for sushi!! Yummy!



Wheezin' the Juice.

I began juicing eight days ago.


My sister originally told me about the documentary Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead, and how she was thinking about wanting to start juicing.  I had to admit:  I thought she was pretty crazy.  My sister is neither fat, sick, or nearly dead.  So I didn't really understand why she'd want to do that.  I knew she'd been wanting to lose some weight for a while - surprising, because she has always been the thinninst of the Primus sisters.  But every gal has hang-ups about their own body. 
I was quite worried, only because my sister once got quite "obesessed" about losing weight, and would start weighing herself every. single. day. for absolutely no reason at all.  I guess I thought she'd get way too into it and drop tons of weight, and be her scary skinny weight like she was back in her college days when she could only afford to live off of canned peaches!  Not good.

But then something happened.  Where I work, it seems everyone has gotten "into" juicing.  I have several co-workers and a few student friends that have done it, or have recently started. 
And have had fantastic results!
I guess my sister was right:  there's something to it.

Don't get me wrong - I'm not the kinda lady that is obsessed with my weight, or is always complaing about my thighs (even though yes, I did have some chafing from the 5k a few weeks ago!), my boobs, or my tummy.  I love my body.  It is strong, and because I'm short, I sometimes think that I do look a little stocky (my Mum always says I'm built like a swimmer - although I haven't been in a pool for practice since I was maybe ten years old).
However, in the last month since I started my new job back in January, I have felt like I've put on a bit of weight.  Sodas are too readily available (and I hardly drink sodas!), and the nearest places to eat aren't all the best for you - although I usually hit up my fave Panera Bread! Nom nom.  But even a half sandwich a day isn't that great either.
And because I'm short...I think I could stand to lose a bit of weight.  I'm probably a little heavier than the average for my height.  My clothes were starting to fit a little differently.  I didn't like it.

Apple, cucumber, pear, and grapes!

So I thought: Why not?  I'll give it a whirl.
I borrowed a co-worker's juicer and haven't looked back. 

It hasn't been that hard.  My poor friend Bella was having headaches the first few days (from a lack of her caffine/alcohol intake - all normal reactions!), but I've felt fine.  However  - I'm not doing the proper juice fast (10 days, strictly juice).  Instead, I have been jucing 2 - 3 times a day (with water in bewteen), but also having a small light dinner with my dinner juice.  I've also been "cheating" sometimes, drinking naked juices as my lunch, when I haven't brought anything into work with me to juice.
Yes, we are that cool at work, there's a juicer upstairs.

Primarily I'm not doing this as a quick fix for weight loss, but more of a way to transition into a healthier lifestyle.
 I've wanted to consume more healthy foods thoughout my day, especially when at work, so what better way?  The weight loss will just be a bonus!


And as far as weight loss goes...I'm down 5lbs in 7 days! :D   But this is just a rough guesstimate, as I didn't actually weigh myself before starting.   I'm just judging this on the last time I weighed myself a month or so ago.
I'm consuming more veggies and fruits, and drinking much more water - something I'm really happy about, since I used to  hardly drink any (shame on me).



I'm going to try and keep this up for two weeks (not including this upcoming Sunday where I will definltey cheat, as it is my Bella's birthday...and fuck not eating at a party!). 
Once two weeks are up, I definitely want to keep juicing for breakfast, and sometimes a lunch replacement.  Above all, it's super yummy, and I can't imagine not juicing as part of my day.  Now who's the crazy one?  I also plan on returning my friend's juicer and buying my own soon.




So, okay Siobhan.  I'm sorry for thinking you'd be crazy to juice.  I'm a convert.  You told me so.



Happy juicing!

Don't Force It.

This weekend I realised: I'm not ready.


It's been about eight months since my ex and I split. And for a while, I've been thinking I was ready to jump back into the dating pool, get my feet wet. I've been wrong. 


Rewind to a few weekends ago:

My ex *Tobes was in town. I knew he would be since months back, because he bought tickets to the Red Hot Chilli Peppas concert in downtown Orlando.
I don't know why...but a few days prior to that upcoming weekend, I let myself think about whether he'd call to see me, or if he'd want to hang out. I still don't really know what I was thinking may/may not have happened if I did end up seeing him. Maybe I secretly thought he'd feel he made a mistake my splitting up with me...
The whole day Saturday, I had this overwhelming feeling that he'd call me. I'd almost convinced myself not to be so stupid, when at 11:59pm, my phone rang. Even though I'd technically been expecting it, I was suddenly nervous as hell.

He told me he was just out of the concert and that he and his friends had hit one of the bars on the main strip of downtown. He asked me if I was downtown, and I said no, to his surprise. I'd actually just been sitting at home watching Breaking Bad episodes on my laptop. Alone.
It was a little hard to hear him, but he just sort of said "Oh okay. I was gonna see if you were Downtown...but you're not..."
I was highly confused. So I asked him if this was an invite. He said sure, that he and his friend's were going to still be out for a few hours still.
It was then I think his friend was trying to talk to him about something. It was a bit loud so he told me he'd call me back in five. We hung up.
Hello mini heart attack.
I didn't know what to do. I actually felt a little excited. But extremely panicked. What was I gonna do when I got there? Just act all cool and collected around him and his friends and pretend that everything was okay?

I was even dumb enough to start looking in my closet for what to wear. I'd been in my pyjamas.

Five minutes came. And passed.

It was twenty minutes later...and I knew he wasn't going to call me back.
He'd made me feel like an idiot. Who the hell was I kidding? He couldn't remember to call me back when I was his girlfriend. Why did I expect more of him, now that I was really nothing to him?
I also felt stupid because of my own reaction. Clearly: I haven't been over him like I thought I was. Sure, I've started to feel okay, but this showed me that I really just need to take time for myself, and to heal. I gave him three years total (our first year long-distance was mostly the getting to know each other: long phone conversations, texting, etc), and I can't force myself into something new, that I'm just not ready for.

There's a lot going on in the works for me this year so far.  I have a new job that I'm loving, and now I can finally make solid plans with my girlfriends to move into a place with them in the fall - something we've had planned for years, but our own personal/financial situations couldn't allow until now.
I'd like to start working out again, and get into an actual groove of feeling and being well. 
These are all of the positive things I just need to allow myself to focus on, and in time, then I will be open to dating.

I've disabled my profile on that online dating site too.  It's too forced, and I really don't enjoy how inorganic it feels to meet people that way.  Not to mention, the ones I have met have either been socially inept or completely awkward anyway.  So it's not like I'm really missing out on much. 
But at least I tried.  As my sister told me: "Sometimes it takes these things to realise you're not ready."



So it's time to just breathe, and enjoy the ride.